Lately I have been thinking of the change in my life. Over the past year I realize that my life has changed in some pretty serious ways, some good and some not so good. I’ve experienced failure and success, become closer to God in some ways and farther from Him in others. God has given me the ability to let things go and accept the way life is despite it not being what I anticipate. God has shown me that when I look at myself that I am not the person who I used to be but that is okay. People in my past would have said there’s only one right way to accomplish something, that everything was black or white. God has opened my eyes to see that my identity as a follower of Christ has grey areas, but again… thats okay. I am finally accepting myself and the changes life has brought and ready for the next round of punches, kicks, and submission holds (yes that would be the UFC cage fighter in me speaking haha). God in His great wisdom and power has lifted a burden from me that I carried for too long, the burden of low self esteem. I feel empowered to take on the tasks life brings me and to come out on top, something I haven’t always felt. I am kneeling at The Throne of grace and mercy and letting God’s forgiveness fall on me and letting Him teach me how to forgive, which is an amazing feeling. I truly know now what it means to lean not on my own understanding like Proverbs 3:5 states. When I look in the mirror I now see that up until not long ago I was a spiritual infant and only deceived myself into thinking I had things figured out. God in His omniscience has shown me my weaknesses but loved me anyway, something not many people do for me these days. Sometimes I can only rely on God but thats the way it should be. My alliance is to God first and thats all I need. God continues to amaze me with his love and mercy. Pray for me as I continue this journey of understanding God’s will for my life and as I learn to transform from the child I once was into the spiritual man God would have me to be.